Friday, November 10, 2017

When Contentment is Under Assault

I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” 
Philippians 4:11-13, NIV

My hopes were high after taking my youngest son, Luke, to an indoor track. He can literally run around our house for 2 hours straight and with the weather getting cold our fenced in back yard isn’t a great option. My friend told me about an indoor track that only costs $25 a year for residents and it even has windows that look out onto farmland! Perfect for having Luke let off steam, I thought, and with how fast he is if he learns to run on a track he could do Special Olympics!

The first time went great with me on one side of Luke and his amazingly-helpful-personal-support-worker, Kat, on the other. I even went to sign us up for the year during part of the time but he and Kat walk/ran at least a mile. How fantastic this will be!

Then came time number two at the track. Luke got agitated very quickly and grabbed my hair. As I was trying to pry off his hand my neck got twisted. Kat and I got him downstairs and out to the car, but barely, with him continuing to be aggressive. If it had just been Luke and me, I’m pretty darn sure a more serious injury would have occurred. As it was, once we got home and Luke calmed, ice and Advil were my needed friends.

Can we not take Luke anymore, even with two of us to help? Is our world shrunk down to the size of our house? By the time my cop husband got home from his evening shift I was a wreck.

Yet, when Paul wrote the above verses (and many others!) his world had shrunk to the size of a prison because that is where he was!

I can’t tell you the number of times I have read or written about these verses but I haven’t yet learned the secret of being content in all situations. Especially not when autism aggression or self-injurious behavior happens daily. When will I learn?

I’m not sure. But I’m thankful I can keep going back to God’s word. To read it over and over. That I can be content through HIM WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH.

Lord, please help us be content no matter our circumstances. Help us find out strength in you every minute of every day. Help our loved ones with special needs or chronic illness to be content as well.

By Deb Abbs


  1. I'm so glad I am not alone in this struggle. My daughter is medically fragile and medically complex with a rare chromosomal abnormality. Lots of medical care, hospital stays, and her crying. Severe financial difficulties, loss of my career and now my own health issues. I KNOW God is good all of the time, but when my daughter has a rough time, I have a rough time. I need help with these verses too.

    1. No, Denise you are certainly not alone. Sounds like a lot on your plate but good thing our Lord can handle it eh?

  2. Christ is enough for me. That's a beautiful mantra. :)