Thursday, September 21, 2017

Time to Dream Again

“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. ‘The Lord is my portion,’ says my soul, ‘therefore I will hope in him.’”
– Lamentations 3:22-24, ESV – 
This summer I came to a very sad realization in my personal life. Stress and busyness and accomplishments and far too many personal plates to spin had drained away all of my hope and anticipation and ability to dream. In the midst of the craziness of life and ministry and personal, my eyes were no longer focused on God and instead were focused on the storms of life. I found myself floundering on many levels, pulling away from the very foundations that I knew I needed which further contributed to my despair and hopelessness.

On the outside, everything seemed fine. I had become very good at “putting on my game face” and hiding the hurt and hopelessness and true sense of emptiness I was experiencing within on a daily basis. I filled the void with more work, more busyness, and quite honestly, more pointless idle time to assist with avoiding my reality. However, I am blessed by a wonderful wife who not only walks with Christ, but knows me well. She could tell that I was out of sorts and, after several painful discussions, she helped me see that I was floundering and could not continue to function this way much longer.

Currently, I am just beginning to slow down, to reconnect with God, and to gain some small slivers of hope. I am resolute that it is time to dream again. God’s love is steadfast, he is faithful, and he is always for me. I have known this my entire life, but had stopped living with this reality fresh in my spirit each day.

Unfortunately, I am confident that I am not alone in this process. Far too many of us become overwhelmed by exhaustion, ever-increasing priorities, and the expectations of others. We can so easily focus on the storm and forget that the God of the storm is calling us to dream, to hope, to remember that the storm will fade, yet God will never fade. In the midst of these seasons, temptation calls much louder, distraction pulls much stronger, and hopelessness grows much quicker.

We know who God is, we speak of him in glowing terms, and we can proclaim Bible verses until we are blue in the face…but do we truly live what we know? Do we run to him for refuge? For hope? For the ability to dream every day?

My soul has been desperately dry and barren for quite some time and the only way to experience the vitality that God calls me to is to lean on him and dream again.
I’m not talking big huge dreams that will change the course of human history. I’m at a place right now where my dreams are as simple as reading the Bible on a regular basis. I dream of praying more often with my wife. I dream of hearing the still small voice of the Holy Spirit whispering to my heart.

I have been tired for far too long. I have allowed the storms to distract for far too long. I have tried to live life on my own for far too long. It is time to lean on God, to trust his mercies, to remember his faithfulness, and to dream again!

Dear Lord, I am so easily distracted and overwhelmed and exhausted. I consistently let me eyes turn to the storm instead of to you. Thank you for your faithful love, for your steadfast mercy, for your incredible grace in my life. Today, I declare that you are my portion and, therefore, I will hope in you. It is time to dream again! Amen.
~ Mike 

1 comment:

  1. Wonderful encouragement. I can empathize. I hope and pray that I will be able to dream again soon also.