Thursday, September 28, 2017

The making of a robot

 "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.
1 Corinthians 12:9-10 (NASB) 

My daughter needs a great deal of assistance to do things that the rest of us don’t have problems doing.

She needs a gait trainer to walk.

She needs special shorts to help keep her hips in line so she does not get hip malformations.

She needs a special vest to keep her scoliosis from getting worse.

She needs foot braces to keep her feet from getting turned out permanently.

She needs a computer to help her talk.

She needs a wheelchair in order to move within a space.

She needs a lift for caregivers to move her from one area to another.

The equipment, equipment, equipment gets overwhelming. And I am sure I am leaving out something. 

In a moment of complete frustration after the delivery of the most recent piece of equipment, my sweet husband said:

 I feel like we are turning Girlie into a robot.”

Oh my.

A robot?

Covered in things that are supposed to help her.

Covered in useful but sometimes overwhelming amounts of items.

We are so VERY thankful for all the amazing inventions and interventions that can help girlie, and thankful for the people who are assisting us with all of these, both in obtaining them but also in using them daily.

But balance and discernment are needed to know how much, how often, and to what extent each is needed.

Things that help her feel and look and be more like everyone else.

Things that address each area of her physical weakness.

My weakness – not so much physical but spiritual. I am spiritually weak – pride overwhelms, "to do" list dictating over people, lover of self and security. 

I cover my weaknesses, prop them, mask them, strengthen them, artificially making my weaknesses stronger, finding equipment to fix my weaknesses.

Do I rely on my phone to fill voids and make pretend usefulness?

Do I rely on Facebook to connect me to the world?

Or do I rely on the Word to connect me to my Creator?

Do I rely on the words of others to prop up my feelings and hold on to those words for strength?

Or do I rely on the Word to provide true hopefulness?

Can I be "content" in my weakness as 1 Corinthians 12 says I can?

Please pray with me:
God, I pray that you would help me in my weakness. My flesh seems to over take me, but you seek to overwhelm me with your love every day. Open my eyes that I may see you in the every day, every day. Please help me to look to you as my source in every area of weakness, and be content in my weakness.  
In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

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