Thursday, August 31, 2017

You Can't Swing a Dead Cat and get Medicaid Approval

Me and My Cat...Here's to 15 Wonderful Years.

I feel like I'm being overwhelmed by the wave of anxiety that washes over us once a year when my daughter is due to be re-evaluated for her medicaid.  

Every state has a different approval process, requests different amounts of information, and gives you certain "if you fail to comply then _____________________" statements.  

It's brutal, it's busywork, it's by-the-book OR ELSE.

I'm requesting records for the past two years from her:  general doctor, ophthalmologist, endocrinologist, speech pathologist, oncologist, nephrologist, and cardiologist. Only two of those providers run on the same computer system, so I can't just go to one, takes phone calls, and forms to all of them.

I'm also suffering from vertigo right now. Constantly looking up and down at the keyboard, paperwork or phone to dial numbers is aggravating that.  

Did I mention I'm also renewing my teaching license? Yeah, I'm working with two government agencies right now. Good times.

And our cat is dying...I know, some of you may not like cats...that's okay. But this is breaking our hearts. It's adding to the cacophony in my head of all that is wrong with this broken world.

These are the "life and times" of the special needs parent. People can look at Facebook and Instagram and see our smiling faces and think everything is alright. But, underneath, the stuff we don't post is about paperwork, and deficit-based evaluations where we have to DWELL on our child's weaknesses or we get denied access because we are trying to stay positive.  

However, God calls us to persevere:

Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him. (James 1:12, NIV)

Since you have kept my command to endure patiently, I will also keep you from the hour of trial that is going to come on the whole world to test the inhabitants of the earth. (Revelation 3:10, NIV)

WE ARE BLESSED because we stand through our trials. WE WILL BE REWARDED in the end for our ability to carry on when things seem so bleak today.  

You are not alone, my friend...I'm right there with you in your struggles to be a parent, advocate, and steadfast soldier of the faith.

Pray:  Heavenly Father, we need your strength.  We need your hope.  We need your courage to carry on when things are overwhelming and we have trouble seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.  Precious Lord, you are our shepherd who can speak to us and calm us when we are frightened, weary or lost.  Speak to us now.  Calm our weary souls and give us peace to help us persevere.  Amen.

~Tammie Hefty