Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Me and My Terrible, Ungrateful Thoughts


My Daughter's Vest Airway Clearance Machine

The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (NIV)
I have a million little thoughts during the day.

Most of these are fleeting thoughts about mundane activities or things to do. Many thoughts come and go without me really giving them any pause.

I wonder if the laundry is done yet.

I need to start my daughter’s medicines.

I have five minutes to get to my work meeting.

I’m hungry.  

These thoughts aren’t bad nor are they Godly. They are the thoughts that just happen.

Occasionally, though, there is a thought that stops me. Recently, my family took a short 2-night trip. As usual, my child's vest airway clearance machine, bi-pap, nebulizer, and medications all came along too, filling up the free space in our hotel room. As I carried my daughter’s clunky airway clearance machine across the hotel room, I thought, “I hate that our vacations require medical equipment.”

It was a short thought. It was also an honest thought. I wish on vacations we could vacation from all of it. No matter where we are, there are medications that need to be done, machines that need space in our living area, and time set apart to complete daily medically necessary treatments.

After this thought, I had a split-second decision to make. I could:

A)   Throw a pity party regarding how daily interventions must be done even on a fun vacation. This may end with silent tears into a pillow before drifting to sleep.

B)   Get mad about moving the machine around the small room and how 100 minutes of our vacation day is devoted to medications and treatments. This will end with me getting snippy with the people around me as anger tends to grow and explode.

C)    Take captive the thought. This requires me to take the thought, accept it occurred, but remind myself that the equipment keeps my daughter healthy. (After all, my daughter is really the one enduring it all!)

Thankfully, I chose the last one. It has taken me years to recognize the thoughts that are not helpful and choose to ignore them. Sometimes, I still mess up and allow a negative thought to ruin my mood and steal my joy. That night, I didn’t allow it. The medical equipment wasn’t going to make our vacation terrible, but focusing my thoughts on things I can’t change could have.
Besides, isn't the joy on her face worth it all?

As you go through your day, pay attention to your thoughts. Are there any that you need to take captive to keep your day more peaceful?  

Prayer:

Thanks, God, for giving us minds that are amazing. Give us thoughts that are Christ-like especially when we are caring for our children with special/medical needs. Help us recognize thoughts that are not Godly and take them captive so they won’t affect our moods and behavior. Let us see the good in our situations and have a heart of thanks. Amen!

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