"God why, why my child?'
If we are truthful, we have all said it or thought it at some point.
For some, it may have been at the time of a diagnosis, for others it may be with each and every trial that you and your child have to face.
On more than one occasion I have uttered, even loudly proclaimed, those words myself.
You don't have to be the parent of a child with a disability, illness, or any unique need, to have occasion to question God and the path that you find yourself on. But it does seem sometimes, that some of us more than others, have the "God why?" market cornered.
No one likes to see their children struggle and suffer, there is not a parent a live that longs to see their child in pain and hurting. We do not beg for precarious and uncertain futures for our off spring. Not one of us longs for sleepless nights filled with worry.
But sometimes, that is where we are, it's what we experience, and harder yet to understand, it's the reality our children live.
So we cry out, "God why, why my child?"
I have often said I don't know the answer to the question "why?" and I don't...
Except, I do.
I do know the answer.
The answer's Jesus, the answer is always Jesus, even when you don't realize it, even when you don't think it possibly can be, even when you don't want it to be.
However, if all I can do is tell you is Jesus is the answer to your questions of "Why?", what good does that do you, what comfort does that bring?
What it may actually bring you is another question of "Why?"
"Why is Jesus the answer?"
If you are reading this right now and you are thinking, "No, it's not Jesus, Jesus is not the answer. I just don't believe that. I have never believed that. How can a God who is supposed to care, who is supposed to 'be love' let this happen to me, to my family...to my child?"
I want you to know; right here, right now, beyond a shadow of a doubt, with every bit of faith that I have, I know God loves and cares about every detail of your life. I know this because I have seen Him in the details of my life, of my families life, and I have seen God in the details of my son's life.
Right now, I see him in the details of your life, because I had no intentions of writing any of this when I sat down and started writing. I want you to see it too, I want you to see it with your heart.
If you are reading this and you are scared and worried, if you are tired and lonely, if you are doubting that God ever shows up.
I know He does.
You can know it too, because you are reading these words.
They are for you,
whoever you are,
wherever you may be.
God cares, He created you and your child.
"Being confident in this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6, NIV
Sometimes in our pain, it is just too much to see that there is some bigger picture and some greater good that is forming from the pain and suffering that we endure that our children endure.
Why is there a God who allows the innocent to suffer and families to go through great hardships?
There is a story in John where Jesus heals a man who was born blind:
His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" "Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus "but this happened so that the works of God may be displayed in him." John:2-3, NIV
If you know Jesus it can bring you great comfort.
I can't tell you exactly why, and what the purpose of the pain you experience is, but I can point you toward the best comfort and direction that I know for navigating your way through that pain.
You are not alone.
God, I thank you for every moment and every detail that You have so carefully woven together. God from our very creation to the last breath we take You are there, You do not leave us. Father, I pray that the peace and comfort of Your all knowing and all powerful existence be felt by those who are doubting, lonely and afraid. You know the challenges that we face and God, help us to see that You are in even the most difficult ones, help us to see you there and feel your presence. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen.
*FOR FURTHER EXAMINATION: Snappin's Mentor Video - "Why My Child?"