Thursday, April 6, 2017

Keep Fighting

Mount Rose Scenic Overlook this Weekend Looking at Lake Tahoe
These were all commended for their faith, 
yet none of them received what had been promised, 
since God had planned something better for us 
so that only together with us would they be made perfect.  
Hebrews 11:39-40, NIV

I'm gutted by the news that Amy Bleuel, Founder of Project Semicolon has died.

If you aren't familiar with Project Semicolon, in short, it is a mental health awareness movement and suicide prevention social media storm.  Because a semi-colon represents a "writer's" desire to "not end a sentence;" Amy helped make the semi-colon a symbol for those who had been affected by suicide in some way--it became a symbol for, "I'm not done yet."

But now, Amy, who encouraged so many others to KEEP GOING has lost her own battle.

This is the sad truth about mental health issues and depression.

It's the truth about many of our health issues, and the truth about our struggles as parents of children with special needs.

We may experience temporary joys and thrilling victories...


The battle will not end...

It's a war we wage every day...

It's a decision we must face every hour...

And I know that God is up in Heaven pleading with us---


Sometimes the victories that we experience can take us on to even greater depressions because we get to the top of the mountain and we have experienced the joy and the beauty there at the top...BUT WE MUST COME DOWN AGAIN.

There will always be another bad day.

There will always be another kick in the stomach.

There will always be another detour in our journey.

I'm sorry, my friends.  But there will always be.

And so, we have to get comfortable with the roller coaster.  We have to know that the journey will lead back down off the mountain at some point.

But, Tammie, this is NOT an encouraging message!

I know it's not.  But, in a way it IS.

Because God will ALWAYS be there.  On top of the mountain and down in the valley.

God will ALWAYS be right beside you.

What Amy did to raise awareness of mental health and her struggle with depression was tremendous and she fought a very brave fight on a very public stage.  Ultimately though, we have to recognize the sad fact that she was still very human and still fought that fight every day.

Why didn't God cure her?  Why didn't he take her struggle away?

For the answer to this question and the questions we ask about our painful trials in our own lives I look to the verse above from Hebrews...

They were commended for their faith...
but they didn't QUITE receive yet what had been promised.

Let's not try to put a period where God has laid a semi-colon in our stories.  

Today, on our way back from Lake Tahoe, as we were coming down off the mountain, I saw a semi-colon in the sky.  What do you see?

Pray:  Heavenly Father, thank you for bringing Amy to this earth; and thank you for giving her the courage to change so many lives while she was here.  We pray that you bless her family and friends who mourn her leaving this world far too early.  Father, we lift up to you all who struggle with mental health illnesses.  Give us peace.  Be our peace.  

For those who need help right now, you can contact the Crisis Text Line by texting “START” to 741-741 or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.


  1. Beautiful. I too hope that those who are directly or indirectly affected affected by mental illness will keep the true meaning of the semicolon in their hearts. I pray that anyone affected will reach out for help.

    1. Yes, this is the kind of thing that Satan likes to use as a distraction from the spirit in which movement started, and I'm praying for God to protect and guard those who are vulnerable to it.