Thursday, March 30, 2017

I Am Not

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Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 
in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.    
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV

There are just some days when I wish I could sleep past 4:30 am, or that I would wake up and realize that I had slept later than the sun.

Most days...that is not the case.

There are just some days when I wish I didn't have a list of appointment phone calls to make or follow up calls on unresolved billing issues.

Most days...that is not the case.

There are just some days when I wish Braille and Speech were on someone else's radar and NOT on ours.

Most days...that is not the case.

There are just some days when I wish I could simply deal with MY anxiety, and that my daughter didn't have worse anxiety all on her own.

Most days...that is not the case.

There are just some days when I wish I didn't have to see someone challenging MY faith or misrepresenting it, or DIS-representing it all over social media...because our FAITH is the only constant and sure thing in our life, and to see it twisted beyond recognition BREAKS.MY.HEART.

There are just some days when I'm heartbroken.
I am HEARTBROKEN.
I AM HEARTBROKEN.

Then I remember:

You are God and I am not.
You are God and I am not.
YOU ARE GOD AND I AM NOT.

Pray:  Father God, thank you for being God. Thank you for being in control and for NOT making me in control. All I need to do is submit to your will and you will straighten out the winding road before me. But that is so much harder than it sounds and my heart hurts while I'm here on earth. I do not understand your ways...but that's because you are God and I am not. Give me strength, Father God. Amen.


~Tammie Hefty

2 comments:

  1. Agree 100%. This is so accurate and timely for my heart and special needs family. Thank you for putting words to my heart-felt sentiments. God bless.

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    1. Thank you, Denie!!!! I will be keeping you in my prayers. I have that song by Mercy Me in my head ... "Even if you don't, my heart is yours alone." Our faithfulness is priceless to God and it will provide fruit.

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