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Listening in WinterSo the groundhog did see his shadow, and winter will continue for at least another 6 weeks. Yet, strangely, I don't mind. But first, some background. I'm a warm weather girl. I hear and see God in the bright blue skies and the bright green leaves on the trees, not to mention the rainbow of colors in the flowers. Still, the God who makes the nature is able to speak in any representation of nature, so I have started a practice of listening for His voice in winter. And it has been eye-opening.
Winter in Spectrum-LandIn Spectrum-Land, things have been winter-like. Unpredictable sleeping and waking behaviors, raging anxiety and OCD complicates the already unpredictable experiences of the Clarke 5. The job of mediating it all, trying to maintain relative balance, has been exhausting and I have walked a thin thread in every way for several weeks. Sometimes walking a thin thread is a good thing... A few days ago, I walked back in the door, after getting J on the school bus. I had removed my winter gear, before remembering my intention to stay outside for at least 5 minutes and listen to God. I stood beside myself (figuratively), surprised, as I noted my alacrity and enthusiasm while donning the appropriate, excessive amounts of clothing.
Alive in Winter?That morning was very special. I went outside with the camera, determined to look and listen. The thought popped into my mind, There are things that live in winter! I started to look for signs of life. The snow had almost finished melting and grass was visible, sticking out through the white cover. Grass. It was alive and green! And through the eery quiet, I remembered the birds we see so often. I wonder how they remain warm, while their counterparts migrate? The answer was obvious. They were made to live in the winter! My eyes took in a small home in the ground, indicating a home for some small creature. It too was made to live in the winter. Barring human interference, the things that are alive in the winter are made to be alive in the winter. They have been equipped with the resources, know-how and dispositional characteristics to make it when the ground is covered with snow and it's so cold, meat freezes outside the freezer.
And so are you. Even if you are in the midnight, sub-zero temperatures of night wakings, hospital visits, school complaints, family upheavals, cleaning, therapeutic confusion, the 6'2" tantrum, you are ALIVE in the winter. You were made to live in the winter. He will be your fire in the cold night and your shelter in the day. He's got you. You can keep going. One. Step. At. A. Time.