Tuesday, December 6, 2016

The Strongest Lesson Learned From Jack So Far

Those who go to God Most High for safety will be protected by the AlmightyI will say to the Lord, “You are my place of safety and protection. You are my God and I trust you.” God will save you from hidden traps and from deadly diseases. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you can hide. His truth will be your shield and protection.
Psalm 91:1-4, NCV

As a parent who has a child with Down syndrome, my stories of life usually include crazy elements such as climbing out the window, or running out the door or even taking the car keys and sneaking into the garage to start the car, pretending to drive. The stories of our life usually highlight the craziness and busy-ness to which we have become custom. 

However, this story is quite the opposite. It was one of those rare moments of gentleness and love. In fact, it was so atypical that the lesson that I saw in it was louder than a steam locomotive's whistle. 

It was Sunday evening and once again I had contorted my body to lay on Jack's bed in the very little open space between Jack and his 90-pound Chocolate Labrador, Jonah. 

Jack usually has difficulty calming at night and so it is helpful for us to lay with him. So there I was. Laying. Quietly. Wishing I could go and get my chores done. Wanting to be anywhere else. And then in happened. Jack hit his head on the headboard. Tears ensued and it was loud again. 

After the usual consoling and encouraging to lay down and go to sleep it happened. 

Jack rolled over to me and snuggled his way into my arms like a chick into its mother's wing. The event burned into my memory. 

Is this what David meant in Psalm 91 when he said that he would hide under God's wing for protection?

I noticed immediately that the reason Jack snuggled into me for relief from his bumped head was because he was hurt... and didn't want it to hurt anymore. 

Tears followed, but this time they were mine. God, have I been so proud to not want your protection? Has cynicism had this much effect in my mind to think that the hurt won't damage me?

Here's the encouragement that we, as parents of kids with special needs, really need to come to grips with on a daily (sometimes hourly) basis. 

Are we going to keep out pride and fight, tooth and nail, through this world of disability, school, medical and emotional snares? 

Or, can we just take a moment to allow the truth that we have suppressed deep down inside to come to the surface? The truth that quietly says, "I need help". 

Psalm 91 is an encouragement. God clearly invites us to hide under His wing for protection which takes away fear. 

PRAY: Lord, remind me that I can take shelter in You and receive help. I don't have to try to do it all on my own.

Be encouraged,