If Only I'd Known; by Laura Krieger
If only I'd known that would have been the last time I'd hear you pray by my bedside I would have tried harder to stay awake to tell you thank you after you said amen.
If only I'd known that would be the last time we would laugh and dance together I would have asked for one more song and twirled until we got dizzy.
If only I'd known that dinner you fixed would be the last time I would eat something put together by your hands ,I would have lingered and eaten slowly.
If only I'd known that would be the last time I would hear you sing I would have stopped what I was doing and joined you in song.
If only I'd known that would be the last time I would hear your voice telling me how much God delighted in me I would have recorded it so I could listen to it over and over and over.
If only I'd known your hug would have been the last one given freely I would have clung to you and allowed myself to feel the strength in those arms that held me as a newborn, as a teenager and as a woman.
If only I'd known that would be the last time I would hear your laughter and see your eyes sparkle with mirth I would have committed to memory what I had said to make you laugh with such abandon.
You don't have to be a caregiver to get caught up in the business of life. Is there anything you need to let go of? Are you taking time to "be in the moment" with those who mean the most to you?