Friday, November 11, 2016

Brick by Brick

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My husband and I have a fourteen year old daughter with multiple disabilities and recently adopted a baby girl who we’ve been told will most likely have disabilities as well.  We have started all over again with therapies, specialists, and my endless list of “what ifs?” I find myself lying in bed at night and thinking about her muscle tone, her eye contact, her lingering startle reflex, and the collection of milestones she hasn’t met that are starting to pile up like bricks in a demo pile. And it is a demo pile.  Each brick is an expectation that has to be removed so that something new can be put in its place.

Some bricks will be painful to let go of. When I realized that my oldest daughter would never sing in a children’s choir, or skip down the hall with a doll in her hand, I grieved that loss deeply. In its place, however, grew a truer love for people and joy in different ways that I never imagined possible. We are building a much different house than we ever expected. 

The Bible has much to say about these earthly houses we build. In Chapter 4 of 2 Corinthians we read about earthly suffering and eternal perspective. Paul goes on in Chapter 5 to encourage the Corinthians while they wait for heaven and new bodies free from earthly trials and tribulations. This eternal perspective is knowing that this house is being torn down brick by brick, and a heavenly one is being made in its place. Because we believe this to be true, deep in our hearts we no longer live for ourselves. 2 Corinthians 5:15-17 reads, “And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again. So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” (NIV) 

As we let go of the things in our past, as we confess and repent of sin, when we wipe the dust off our Bibles and open them up to read, we are giving way to spiritual demolition. We learn what it means to not just be a believer in Christ, but to make him the Lord of our lives. It can be hard to let go of being master architect, engineer, and decorator in our own lives. Colossians 3:1-4 tells us how to give way in our spirits to the process of becoming this new creation. “Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.” (NIV)

Father God, help me to continually give up the right to be in charge of my life.  Every day, I must surrender my will to yours.  I know that you love me enough to send your son to die for my sins, every last wretched one.  So, I trust you to make me into something new and beautiful.  Give me the courage to set my mind on you, and to let go of earthly things.

~Kimberly

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