Thursday, September 29, 2016

Are You Tired of Being Needed?

Don't worry about anything; 

instead, pray about everything.

 Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all 

He has done.

Philippians 4:6, NLT

Have you ever become exhausted from giving, giving, giving? 

Are you ever tired of being needed?

I have, too many times to count!

As a wife with a husband who "needs" me... As a mom of a child with down syndrome that "needs" me; a foster mom of a girl with autism that "needs" me; a mom of 6; Nana of 11; pastor's wife to a church family that "needs" me... Some days I think I can't take one more "need" being pulled out of me.

Sadly, I'm not a magician with magic solutions to everyone's needs in my hat.

I woke up last Sunday morning exhausted. I dreaded "having" to go to church that morning. But, hey, I'm the pastor's wife, so bury that thought and paste a smile on my face. Get a grip, Cindy, just put one foot in front of the other. I reminded myself I was "needed." And it was my turn to serve downstairs in our children's church.  

 "Ughhh. It sure would be nice if I could just go and sit.

I took a shower. Had two cups of coffee and read my Bible.  Still didn't "feel" any different.  But being well schooled on obeying the Lord, and being faithful in spite of my feelings, I got dressed and began to review the songs for praise and worship for Kid's Church.

I tried to focus on the morning and the needs of everyoneI usually love to go to church. I usually love to serve. I usually pray for God to specifically lead me to people who need to be encouraged. 

But this Sunday I was just wishing the morning was already over and I was in my comfy bed for another favorite ritual -- a Sunday afternoon nap.  

I was driving to church, trying to stuff down my weariness, trying not to be negative or whiny. One thought kept shouting in the hallways of my mind...


I was missing the point entirely!

A text message from God???  Lol.  

Nope. It was a text from my daughter-in-love, Sarah. God had put me on her mind that morning and she had sent me this text:
Oh, the riches in that passage! And God was clearly speaking to me!


It was like a dam broke inside my all too exhausted heart.

"Tell God what I need? Isn't it 'bad' to be needy? Doesn't God want me to cowgirl up? Doesn't He know what I need? Why do I have to ask Him?"

And the Lord said,

"Cindy- you need to ask because it puts you in the position of humility. You begin to realize you are not anyone's Need-Meeter. I AM.     I, alone am inexhaustible and without limits. I never tire of working in my children's life. You're to come to Me with Your needs and be filled! Then let me overflow into others lives from what I've given you. You were never meant to meet all those needs IN YOUR OWN STRENGTH."

Light Bulb moment.  I know this. I've lived this, but I fall back into my old way of thinking time and again!

Humility. A great place to start. 

I am limited. God is not. 

So this week has been the beginning of different, better living. I've been telling my Father every morning -- sometimes every hour -- what I need to get through my day. 

Then I remind myself, to do what I can in my limited abilities and point them to the real Need-Meeter! 

Pray: Thank you, Father, that You never tire of being needed. Your solutions to our problems never cease! They are new every hour! Teach us to live as your children, telling you exactly what we need. Fill us with Your power so that we may serve others in Your power.
In Jesus Name, Amen.

Cindy Barclay

1 comment:

  1. I'm a Pastor's wife and mama of 4 under the age of ten and I was so desperate that I googled "tired of being needed." God led me here. Thank you sister!