Friday, May 6, 2016

When We Are Hypervigilant With Our Own Kid

“Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.”
Isaiah 53:4-5

His smile lights up the house and make his brown eyes shine.
His angry stomps shake the house.

His giggle is contagious.

His aggression hurts.
He loves to watch football and baseball on TV.

He hates when I tell him “no” and starts crying, yelling and banging his head on the floor.

The above statements are all about my up and down special needs boy, Lukey, and can happen daily—sometimes hourly. The aggression part had been much less often but we are going through a medicine change right now and the biting is back as shown in the picture below. It’s a tough time for all of us.

AND I HATE BEING ON GUARD AGAINST MY SON.  Walking on egg shells; moving away when he is on edge for fear of getting bit, kicked or hit. Plus, he is only 11years old but SO STRONG. What will we do as he keeps growing bigger?

I don’t have many answers but I do know this: Jesus was pierced for our sins and sorrows as the Isaiah the prophet said. His wounds were much bigger than mine and He died on a cross for me—for all of us.

So, even though…..
I can’t relax in my own home;

HE didn’t have a home to relax in.

I don’t think people understand all the caregiving I do;

HE was misunderstood.

Luke lost his speech;

HE chose to be silent before His accusers.

When Luke has meltdowns I sometimes get bit, hit or pinched;

HE was mocked, beaten, whipped and crucified.
Prayer: Lord help us keep remembering all you went through for us. Then our own struggles will seem so small compared to your suffering. Thanks that you are always with us.


  1. Oh Debbie. This post hurts my heart as I have a son SO much like your Lukey. But, I love your attitude and comparisons to Jesus' life and example for us. Daily I cling to the verse "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us." Romans 8:18. Praise to the LORD for his mercy in that we have been adopted and declared righteous. We can't even IMAGINE the glory that is reserved for us! My favorite favorite favorite verse, "See how great a love the Father has bestowed on us, that we would be called children of God; and such we are." 1 John 3:1 :-)

    1. Cathie, I love the verses you shared above! So true and I wish I could remember them everyday!!