Tuesday, May 10, 2016

I Don't Have The Luxury of Being Depressed

For we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28

It's late on Monday night and I am getting ready to go to Houston this weekend with my lovely wife to fellowship with and encourage other parents who have children with special needs and to also, hopefully, provide some insight for churches about how they can be more effective and proactive in supporting families with special needs.  

However, there is so much to get done before we leave. My mind is exploding with things to remember (in the midst of a regular work schedule)... and it just so happened that Jack did not pass his annual audiology test today and so it's back to the ENT for more testing.

I was reminded of a blog post I wrote a while ago.  It seems that I learned another lesson from it today that I want to share with you.

It's about not being depressed. It's true. I do not have the luxury to be depressed. When my alarm goes off at 5:15am, my schedule demands that I jump out of bed and begin my day. If I don't, then the subsequent series of events usually culminates in my tardiness at work.  As you read this, you most probably agree. I won't go into detail because, as comedian Brian Reagan says, "Nobody likes a 'me monster' ", but I have a funny feeling that you wish you could escape the pressure for an hour, a day, a month, forever.

These past few weeks have begun an interesting journey. I've learned that the big "D" affects people differently.  I've seen it, tried to understand it, yet now I think I'm beginning to appreciate it.

Why it happens can be explained by doctors and preachers who both have different viewpoints and even then you have to be coherent enough to balance the advice. I'm not even going to try to explain the 'why'... the fact is depression exists.  Being a parent of a child who has special needs does not negate your eligibility either.

Last night, I lay on the bed with my amazing wife and together we read Isaiah chapter 55. This is one of my favorite chapters in all the Bible. There are several principles here that I would like us to remember as we search, each day, for an understanding of struggles that we face.

Truth #1 - God wants to be found...In Isaiah 55:6, we are told to "Seek the Lord while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near".   When hopelessness, negativity and/or anxiety is all that is circling our head, we really need help. God is telling us that He is near and can be found. Isolation is not promised, being with God is promised. Solace found!

Truth #2 - I don't have to figure it out...In Isaiah 55:8-9, the writer continues, " 'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are My ways your way', Says the Lord. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts' ".  Reality check...I don't have the smarts to understand everything, even why I 'feel' the way I feel. It's been said that the older we get the more we don't know. Someone else once said (I don't know who), 'the only thing you can be sure of is the stuff you don't know'.

Why, oh Why, am I so bent of figuring it out and solving it. This is especially true for the 'fix-it' Dad.

Be encouraged that God wants us to truly come to a humble understanding that we don't know why certain events and feelings happen in our lives ... and we don't have to know.

What we DO know is...
Romans 8:28, For we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
Micah 6:8, He has shown you, O Man, what is good; and what the Lord requires of you. But to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?

Be Encouraged,

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