|My Prayer Journal|
he gave them the power and authority to drive out all demons
and to cure diseases,
and he sent them out to proclaim the kingdom of God
and to heal the sick... Luke 9:1-2 NIV
This was not long after he had first chosen his disciples either. They were still pretty rough around the edges.
But, do WE still have the power to heal? Is that just an old "gift" from the days when Jesus was walking the earth and after his death and resurrection to try to garner more followers?I believe we DO still have the power to heal, and I believe we DO all get called to that privilege as disciples of Christ.
Call me a Jesus Freak...but, I do.Back in 2004, my daughter wasn't even 6 months old and she was lying on a table waiting for her second eye surgery. She has glaucoma, and it was roaring like a lion from the time she was just a newborn.
I had my journal with me that day and had started to "prayer journal" the minute the team took her back to put her under. Here is what I wrote:
December 6, 2004
Here we are at surgery #2. The pressure was still high in her left eye. Lord, I come to you today with GREAT EXPECTATIONS. I believe you can heal her. Guide Dr. S and Dr. S [using just initials for anonymity on the blog]. Bless the whole team. Give Evie a peaceful surgery and recovery. I pray right now that the pressure is decreasing even before the surgery begins-I pray the fluid that was once trapped is able to get out. Lord you ARE the God who does MIRACLES! You work miracles everyday in our lives-and today we believe there will be more.
Thank you for all the family and friends you surround us with. Thank you for a great webcam yesterday with mom and dad.
Thank you for Evie's smiles, teeth, cheeks and "oh boys"! Thank you for two black kitties who love to nap. Thank you for all the prayers and intersessions for Evie right now.
Give us wisdom, strength and vision.
In your hands, I give all this to you. Your will be done, Lord. Now, this minute, and for all eternity. AmenI closed my journal and waited...and prayed. We probably watched The Golden Girls on the TV in the waiting room. Time ticked by and I knew that my prayer had not been answered because it was taking so long. Dr. S had said that he would just do an exam if for some reason the pressures were normal.
But, I decided, I had done my best. I had prayed just as we had been taught:
- Praise the Lord for all the blessings he has already given you.
- Pray blessings for those around you.
- Ask God for forgiveness of any sins for which you have not confessed, and pray for wisdom.
- Expect great things as you communicate YOUR desires to him.
- And ULTIMATELY Pray for HIS will to be done.
Yes, I had done all of that in my prayer.
My heart leapt.
Was this really happening? Had I prayed for healing for my daughter and we actually received it?
Was it permanent?
Did I CHANGE God's will? NO.
God commissioned us, as believers to TESTIFY to his grace, goodness, faithfulness, sovereignty, and love. It doesn't have to be pretty, and it doesn't have to be perfect. But, we are commanded, as disciples, to do just what the first Twelve were told to do: drive out demons, cure diseases, proclaims the kingdom and heal the sick.