Monday, April 18, 2016
Relentless. That’s how it all feels to me in this phase of my life. The days are so long and yet they’re never quite long enough to get everything accomplished. And the days, they just keep coming, one right after the other, filled to the brim with appointments, and therapies, and IEP’s, and phone calls from teachers, and phone calls to insurance companies, and cooking and cleaning and the laundry – so much laundry - and all you want to do is have a few minutes to yourself so you can breathe, and all you want to do is have a few minutes of calm so you can just love and be loved in the hugs of your family. And just when you think you’ve got a handle on things and you can just breathe there is a trip to the ER for this or that and it throws a wrench in the entire works and you are just plain tired. Because the long days that are too short and the behaviors that need modifying and the grades that need improving and the children that need loving are just relentless. And it isn’t any one particular thing that you can fix or change or adapt to, it’s just everything and even though it’s just a phase of life and it will pass, it’s just relentless.
And when everything is overwhelming and relentless I need to know that God is relentless, too. I need to know that when I can’t seem to catch my breath long enough to breathe out a prayer to God, He still loves me, relentlessly. And when I feel like I’m far away from Him because I cannot catch even a minute to myself to read His Word, I need to know that He is no farther away, but He holds tightly to me, relentlessly. And I need to know that when I can’t seem to catch a break, or sleep even one single night all the way through, that He is my rest, my retreat, my rock, and He is relentlessly in love with me. And when the nights are long, and I lie awake, worrying what the future holds, I need to know that my God relentlessly loves my babies, too. And my God loves them more than I ever could. And my God has a future planned, for me, for them, for us. And I can breathe in deep and let it all out, because my God, He loves relentlessly.
Romans 8:38-39 (NIV) For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
In these times of relentlessness, when life’s pace overwhelms and we can’t seem to catch our breath, let us find our rest in your relentless love. Please give us peace when the days are chaotic and give us hope that takes away our worry. Please give us productive days and restful nights, and most of all,let us know Your love that we might reflect it back to the ones we love. Amen.