Wednesday, March 16, 2016

3 Steps to Get a Clue

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14 NIV

My husband is the cop, but I find myself playing detective way too often. My son, who is non-verbal, got sick recently and I began searching for clues. The dialogue in my head went something like this:

“Okay, he has a high fever and isn’t eating. And he took a nap! Unheard of. Something is seriously wrong if he isn’t eating and he is sleeping during the day…..Is his throat sore? Let’s give him some Advil and see if that helps.”

After the ibupropren kicked in--talking to my husband:

Me: “Mike, he is eating a bit but see how he looks when he swallows? His throat definitely hurts.” 

Mike: “You could be right hon.”

Me: “I hope it’s nothing serious.”

Mike: “He’ll be fine.”

Me: “You always say that.”

The next day he was running around more (like usual!) and his fever passed so this detective lady thought he might be on the mend; just some quick thing I guess.  Alleluia! Thank you Lord! He can go to school tomorrow and I can make my appointments and get something done on my to-do list.

Luke did go to school for one day but looked exhausted when he came home. I felt like a bad mama and a poor detective. An expert was needed to help me find more clues so off to the doctor we went the next morning, even though Luke is NOT a fan.

He did pretty well. Meaning he let the doctor get a quick Luke down his throat while the nurse and I held his arms but swabbing his throat was a no go. The doctor said his throat looked bad but is it a virus or strep throat? She called in an antibiotic in case it is strep and since he hadn’t been on one since 2014 we decided to have him take it just in case.

Shortly after we got home from the doctor’s office I noticed something new. Luke had a rash. Oh no detective Deb, what does that mean? Does he have something that means he will be sick, contagious and HOME FROM SCHOOL for an extended time? Please no Lord!

A REAL expert was needed now. I better call Donna, otherwise known as my mom. She theorized and commiserated with me like good moms do but we couldn’t crack the case. So round and round my brain swirled and pondered not going anywhere except in circles. Any other special needs parents (aka detectives!) out there ever ride this crazy train or is it just me?

Eventually the over-analyzing exhausted me and I had to STOP and take a deep breath. That was the first thing that helped me. Step two was REMEMBER. Remember the One who made Luke and holds all the answers in His hand. The Lord. This is the same heavenly Father who, as Moses led the Israelites out of slavery and they were terrified he told them, “The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still.”

The final step that helped was to TRUST. To stop playing detective and to leave Luke’s health in God’s hands instead of worrying and obsessing. For me, trusting in the Lord means continually coming back to Him and placing whatever issue is happening that moment in His hands.

Then, at least for a little while, I can stop playing detective.

Prayer:  Lord, we praise you and thank you that know everything! Our knowledge is so limited and we would be in trouble without you Father. Thank you that we can trust You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
By Deb Abbs
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