You're irritated. Something did not come up to your standards, and it has you fuming inside. The school didn't follow your child's IEP the way you expected. Your doctor didn't take you seriously when you contacted him with your concerns. Your spouse didn't remember your birthday in the same way that you wanted it celebrated. Your son dumped all the clean laundry you just killed yourself washing, drying, and folding all over his dirty bedroom floor.
Life is filled with disappointments and let downs. There are times where our irritation is justified and times when it's not. It seems there are too many times when we need to pull out our righteous anger and assert ourselves.
Still, there are many MORE times when we are behaving like an insolent child that didn't get her way.
Have you ever caught yourself acting this way toward GOD? Have you ever looked at the circumstances you find yourself in and think, "Really, God? This is your best for me?" You look at your life thinking, This isn't what I expected! Jesus said He came to give me life abundantly, and this sure ain't it!
Sadly, I have to admit there have been countless days where I have found myself in deep dissatisfaction over this life of mine. I want to trade what I've been given in life for someone else's blessings. Nothing will make those feelings worse than seeing people's wonderful vacation pictures on Facebook, or sitting next to them at a Bible study where they go on about enjoying God's bountiful provision. It is also hard not to get irritated hearing people ask for prayer for minor things like their child making the basketball team or that the contractor will have their rec room done by the holidays. Parents like me would give anything to have problems like that! Keeping the monster of envy away can be an incredible battle some days.
THIS is just one of the many reasons we need to "Come apart before we come apart." Unless we get to know God and hear His still, small voice, we can't begin to comprehend His awesome, matchless nature.
Spending daily quiet time in the Word changes us. The Holy Spirit does a transforming work as we read and learn that our Maker is good, generous, wise, and loving. We begin to see how desperately sinful we are compared to His awesome holiness. The realization that we deserve nothing but hell begins to sink in. And we develop a new awareness as the LORD'S plans to work out His great purposes for us begin to unfold. After taking so much for granted, we suddenly awaken to blessing after blessing filling every moment of our days.
We can't recognize any of that until we quiet ourselves and listen, getting to know Him through His word.
One of the names of God used in the Bible is "El Shaddai," most often translated, "God Almighty." When the linguistic origins are examined, we discover that this name describes the God who is MORE than enough. He is the All Sufficient God. His power pours out into our lives. Yet, our cooperation is required in order to be a part of it.
If we keep looking at the grass on the other side of the fence claiming it is much greener, we rob ourselves of our allotted portion, which is more than enough. We call God a liar when we claim that what He has assigned us is NOT good enough. We put our tiny wisdom above His infinite wisdom. Meanwhile, all of the joy and contentment that accompanies what He has ordained in our lives slips through our fingers like warm, soft, inviting sand.
I don't know about you, but I don't want to waste any more time nursing my disappointments or wistfully thinking of how things "should be." I would rather experience the fullness of all God intends for me, whether it is the way I envisioned it or not.
PRAY: El Shaddai, You ARE enough. Forgive me for the times when I have been ungrateful. Heal my wounded, disappointed heart. Holy Spirit, keep my eyes focused on You and the boundless grace You daily pour into my life.
~ Barb Dittrich