Wednesday, October 28, 2015

When Your "What If" Becomes Reality

Photo Credit, David Niblack,

For the thing I feared has overtaken me,
and what I dreaded has happened to me.
Job 3:25 HCSB

I spent years running from my fears. There are worst-case scenarios I was certain I would never survive, and I have done everything in my power to avoid them. But I find myself facing the very "what if" situations that have caused me countless hours of anxiety and worrying. They are constant companions, and I have learned:

They're not as bad as I thought they would be.

The circumstances are terrible. It's a stressful time, and I'm still not sure how this chapter of my life is going to end. But God. . . .

God is in the middle of my mess. He's walking through it with me, and I have peace that He will see me to the other side, regardless of the outcome. There's grace for these hard days, grace that you don't get when you're fretting. You only get it when you need it, when you're going through it.

I have wasted so much of my life, not enjoying the moment right before me, worrying about things that might never happen. Now that I'm facing some of my nightmares, I'm trying not to make the same mistake. I'm finding that God's love and grace are enough. I can enjoy the present, even while I live in the midst of uncertainty about my future. And while these situations have nothing to do with my child, seeing how closely God is walking with me here gives me hope for the future.

No matter what comes, God will be with us. He will walk us through the hard times that lie ahead, and we'll realize as we cling to Him, basking in His love and goodness, that they're not as hard as we imagined they might be.

"Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God."
~ Corrie ten Boom

Pray: Father, thank You for walking through this valley with me. Thank you for teaching me things about Yourself that I never understood before. Thank you for allowing me to know You better and to grow in faith and trust. Thank You for the peace You give me that sees me safely through each day. Thank You for meeting every need, for hearing every prayer, and for saving every tear. Thank You for seeing my children and me through whatever we may face. Amen.

1 comment:

  1. I am walking the same journey. YOU are not alone. Be blessed as you journey on.