Wednesday, August 26, 2015
What is God Doing? Hope for Our Darkest Days
My child has another migraine, another infection. I'm facing another diagnosis. Bills pile high, with no money in sight. Our family fractures. I'm going through some of my darkest days ever.
I haven't asked God why. I haven't begged and pleaded for a certain outcome. Honestly, I don't know what to pray anymore and have thrown myself on His mercy, pleading for His will and His way to be accomplished. I am trusting in His goodness, His love, and His faithfulness in ways I never have before. I am believing in Him wtih all I have because He is all I have.
A friend texted me Isaiah 43:19, and I am clinging to that promise. Even in the darkness, even in the dismal circumstances in which my family finds itself, God is there, and He is working behind the scenes on our behalf. He is doing something new for us, making a way for us where there doesn't seem to be one.
I am praying for eyes to see it as He brings it to pass. I'm taking one day at a time, trusting Him with each step I take, asking for wisdom and guidance beyond what my mind can come up with on its own. This thing called life is not for the faint of heart, and it's not for the weak.
I am stronger than I think because of Him, and I will see His goodness in the land of the living (Psalm 27:13). By faith I move into the future, knowing that He is already there.
Pray: Father, I thank You that You are the answer that I seek and that I can trust You with everything that is going on in our lives right now. I am so glad that You see the end from the beginning and already have everything worked out on our behalf. Thank You for guiding me each step of the way so that I can reach that point. Thank You for loving me no matter what and for seeing me through this crisis. Amen.