Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Finding My Real Life

 “Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand.   Think about the things of heaven, not the things of earth.   For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God. And when Christ, who is your life, is revealed to the whole world, you will share in all his glory.” 
 Colossians 3:1-4

Before Bethany (who happens to have Down Syndrome) was born, we lived a "normal" life (whatever normal is)  We had 5 kids, ages 5-17, who had various interests, worked, played sports, and our life revolved around youth group and church. 

Then Bethany was born and special needs thrust us into a new dimension.

I remember once, when Bethany was about five, I was overwhelmed with the enormity of the task that lay ahead of me.

My life seemed to stretch out endlessly before me. It hit me like a sledge hammer that Beth didn’t “pick up” information like all my other children.   She had to be taught one concept at a time, spell one word at a time, memorize one math fact at a time, be shown one safety concept at a time- and not only that- but each new “concept” had to be taught repeatedly until she could get it from her short term memory to her long term memory.

Self- focused, I began to feel sorry for myself. I remember quite grouchily questioning God:

“Is my whole life going to revolve around teaching Bethany everything for the rest of my life? 

Do you hear my whine and self-pity?  My limited perspective of God’s plans and providence?:)

Surprisingly, I heard His answer that stunned me and then actually made me smile.

Cindy, what better thing did you have in mind to do with your life?” 


What better thing do I have to do than to have the honor to teach my children to know God and walk in His ways, to give them the skills they need to be a giver of God’s love to this world?  Isn’t that why I sing and what I desire to do- “I surrender all” and “Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord to Thee”?

Oh, how easily I can get caught up in the carnal perspective of what is “successful” and “worthy” of my time.  My "real life" is hidden IN CHRIST!  I have to let go of our old perspective and dreams to discover the abundant life God has waiting for me. 

Real Life: I never dreamed I would find such joy in losing my life, and embracing the treasure of the life God has for me.

PRAY:  Father, help us find our true lives and identity in You! Give us eyes to see what you see.  Prepare our hearts to walk in Your ways.  Give us a thankful heart and rejoice as we embrace the life you have lovingly chosen for us!  In Jesus name, Amen.

~ Cindy Barclay

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