Monday, October 20, 2014

The Prayer I Was Scared to Pray

"Overwhelmed" by puck90 via Flickr
Oh, that you would bless me, indeed,
and enlarge my territory.
That your hand would be on me
that you would keep me from evil
that I might not cause pain.
~ 1 Chronicles 4:10 NLT ~

The first time I read the Prayer of Jabez, I was horrified. That second phrase - and enlarge my territory - sounded like the scariest prayer I had ever heard; almost as terrifying as praying for patience. 
I am a Step-Mom/Mom of four boys: two of which have multiple disabilities (ages 10 and 18) and two of which are just starting to act more like humans, rather than wild animals (ages 3 and 4). I can not imagine why anyone would ask for MORE areas of responsibility. I was certain this would be a disastrous prayer for me to pray. Yet, as the day progressed, I could not stop thinking about Jabez's prayer. Finally, I gave in to researching the prayer further, even though I was still not ready to commit to praying it.
God took that one "inch" I gave him and made it a mile in the very first resource I stumbled upon. The Prayer of Jabez 30 Day Challenge broke the prayer into five easy-to-digest parts with clear explanations. I jumped right to the phrase that concerned me the most and was shocked and immediately revived beyond belief at what I read!
"Ask God to allow you to do more for him and his kingdom.  As your territory (opportunities to serve him) expands, your ability and resources supernaturally increase, too.  All he gives us to do, he will empower us to do by his Holy Spirit." - Sharing Hope Ministry Amarillo, TX
I am not asking for more exhaustion, more dread, more toil, wear and tear on my day.  I am asking for more opportunities to SERVE HIM. This is his yolk and his burden, which are easy and light (Mt. 11:28-30)!  And God doesn't just leave me alone to serve him, he increases his power and influence within me so that I may serve in power, love and self-discipline (2 Tim. 1:7)! This prayer is layer upon layer of the very things God promises us in the New Testament!

This prayer is already at work in my life and these words are the primary reason I am still able to smile (even if it's an internal, not external display) at the end of each day. These words are his own promises and gifts he wants for us. When I pray along with Jabez, I am basically saying to God that I want what HE wants for me. I want his promises. I want to be fulfilled by his ways, not my own. 

Now every day I voice this prayer with confidence and joy rather than fear and uncertainty. And every day it becomes just a little bit easier to see things from HIS perfect perspective, which makes my territory a little less painful and the temptation to "check out" a little less appealing. 

PRAY: Dear Lord, bless me indeed and enlarge my territory.  That your hand would be on me, that you would keep me from evil, that I might not cause pain.  Amen. 

- Emily Krill

4 comments:

  1. This is a new way to look at things! Thanks for the post!

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    1. I am so glad you found it to be new and fresh!! Thank you, Deb!

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  2. Wow, Emily! That's powerful! His perspective- His kingdom- His objective! That's what I need to help me move forward with joy and confidence in this journey I've found myself on. Love the line "and every day it becomes just a little bit easier to see things from HIS perspective, which makes my territory a little less painful and the temptation to "check out" a little less appealing. Bless your heart for sharing this encouragement!

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    1. Thanks, Cindy! I am so thankful to hear that God used me to speak to you! Blessings to you and your "territory" also! :)

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