Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Audience of One

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Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.  For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ...Philippians 3:8

God often reminds me that the world is NOT my primary audience. I am not here to become popular, famous, or highly acclaimed.  I am here to carry out his will, whatever that may be.  He most recently is reminding me of this with my current condition; daily migraines. 

For those who have not suffered from migraines, the only way I can describe it is a searing pain that runs from my lower right shoulder blade, up through the back of my head, radiates down through my right ear into my jaw and creates a stabbing pain behind my right eye.  Even when I am able to take a medication that might alleviate the pain, my body still experiences the migraine, so I am exhausted.

That being said, I have been unable to really workout for the past week (I typically workout daily, alternating a turbo jam aerobic workout with a free-weight lifting program, my), my "packing for our big move" has come to an abrupt halt, and I find myself going to bed right after Evie falls asleep and having a hard time making it through the day without a nap.  

In other words, I'm completely useless.

This is often how God tells me that I need to slow down.  It seems like whenever I'm in a flurry of activity and busy-ness, God knows that he needs to hit me over the head with an a iron skillet in order to get me to slow down and remember that "I'm not all that".  When I am in the middle of a cycle of migraines, I am brought to a state of humility unlike any other time.  I have to recognize that sometimes my mind can't over come my physical circumstances, and I have to recognize that, even without my involvement, LIFE GOES ON.  

So, now, as I sit here writing and thinking about all the things I "have to do" today, I also realize that God is saying, "Tammie, you are not the center of that task...without you, life will go on."  
My salvation does not rest on my ability to DO anything today.  My life with God in Heaven does not hinge on my completion of a to-do list.  Anything that I accomplish to bring ME glory is garbage in the eyes of God.
Pray:  Heavenly Father, help me to slow down and look to you.  Help me to remember that my life was created to bring YOU glory. Help me to lay aside my pride and look to you for strength.  Amen.

~Tammie Hefty

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