Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Travel, Trust, and the Special Needs Parent
The one who lives under the protection of the Most High dwells in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the LORD, "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." Psalm 91:1-2 HCSB
I'm traveling twice this month. Once with my husband for a trip he won at work, and the next week for several days to speak at a conference. While I'm looking forward to both trips, I'm struggling with leaving my children behind. They will be well cared for by family members I love and trust. All the necessary instructions, medications, phone numbers for doctors, and food preparation will be taken care of before I leave.
But I'm still struggling. On one of the trips, I'll be out of the country for a few days. That means no cell phone service, and I may not have an internet connection either. On both trips, I'll be far from home.
The real issue is that I have somehow deceived myself into thinking that I'm the one in charge of my children's safety and well-being. While that's true to a degree, it's not true that I'm solely responsible. Ultimately, God is responsible for my children, both now and as they venture out into the world more, developing independence, preparing for the day when they will leave my care completely. I can't protect them fully, now or in the future.
Traveling is an exercise in trust. I have to entrust myself and my children to the only One who can really protect all of us.
PRAY: Father, thank you for taking such good care of us. Help me to trust you with our safety when we're together and apart. Amen.