Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish?
You may be SHOCKED to read this, but there are times where I want to hurl my Bible across the room in utter frustration and pain.
"Where ARE you, God?" I have been known to shout at the top of my lungs. "WHEN will you show up?!"
I find God's promises to ring hollow for me at those points in time.
You know what I am talking about: The times where you are barely through one trauma when another one comes crashing down over you; or the times when one major life struggle is taking place, and another decides to happen almost simultaneously; or when certain troubles happen over, and over, and over in unrelenting repetition.
THOSE are the times where it is so very hard to feel the LOVE that your MAKER has professed to you.
Jesus' death on a cross for love of you feels miles away from where you are in the pain of today.
The next step is to recall what you know as irrefutable truth from God's word. Of course, you can only do that if you spend regular time reading your Bible. (Hint, Hint) There was one time where I was so absolutely fried by everything falling apart around us as a family that the only truth I could cling to was Genesis 1:1, "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth." You may be surprised to hear, that was enough to keep me hanging on. But here are some others that are worth emblazoning on your soul for the times where you are not feeling the love:
- Help me, Lord my God; save me according to your unfailing love. (Psalm 109:26, NIV)
- The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love;
Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you." (Jeremiah 31:3, NKJV)
- Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends. (John 15:13, NASB)