Thursday, January 9, 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR???? Not so much......


 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3: 5-6, NIV

Happy New Year?  Yeah, right.  In the Midwest school’s winter break got extended two days.  TWO WHOLE DAYS!  As a parent of someone with special needs you know what this means and it isn’t pretty.  Not only was there no school but with the extremely cold weather we were stuck inside.  Try explaining this to my 9-year-old son, Luke, who loves being outside.  He’s non-verbal but kept bringing me to the door to communicate he wanted to play in the back yard.  “Sorry honey, it’s too cold outside.”  Then the kicking, screaming and crying ensued (him, not me, although I felt like it!). He eventually calmed down and got distracted by his iPad or his beads.  Until bringing me to the door AGAIN.  On Tuesday, January 7th, the second extra day home due to the cold weather, I cracked. 

Thankfully, my car has a remote start so I let it run and warm up for quite a while and then took Luke to Burger King.  He loves the French toast sticks there, and I love the frozen Cokes.  We went inside to eat and drink, and he was happy.  Me?  Not so much.  The ICEE machine was busted.  But Luke was calm and content, so it was still good to get out.  Coming back home the meltdowns returned.  And returned some more.   Extra days off would be one thing if it was just me and my 14-year-old son, Brandon.  He’s great at entertaining himself, plus he’s a teenager, so he sleeps in!  And his best friend, Robert, lives across the street, so he just bundled up and ran over there for some of the time.

My husband was the lucky one.  He’s a police lieutenant and got to go into the station!  I asked him if we could trade spots, but he didn’t seem to think that would work out so great.  Bummer.  I texted him repeatedly and, as is typical, he had some wise words for me.  Not that I wanted to hear them at the time but they at least got me thinking. 

Me: “Holy Moly, (wanted to swear but restrained myself!) Luke is sooo grumpy!!  Happy New Year?  Yeah, right.”

Mike:  “Sorry hon.  Hopefully he rebounds.” 

Me: “Ha!"

Mike:  “It will get better—the year.  Character and spiritual building times.” 

Me:  “Right….”

Leave it to my husband to remember the truth when I’m just white-knuckling it.   His reminder forced me to ask myself if I’m allowing God to make me more like Him during the tough times.  Am I?  Am I at least continually talking to Jesus or just continually complaining and griping both in my head and out loud?  Even if I’m far from being in a “HAPPY NEW YEAR” mood I need to be asking God to make me more like Him.  And trusting Him that He knows best.

PRAYER:  Lord, help us keep talking to You.  And listening to what You tell us.  When things are especially tough help us remember to trust you and not just lean on our own understanding.

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