Wednesday, January 22, 2014
A New Thing
“Look, I am about to do something new; even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:19 HCSB
A new thing. That’s what I love about a new year. It’s a fresh start, a “do over.” I desperately need one. I’m exhausted. We went from my daughter’s severe anxiety and meltdowns during the holidays to her having a sinus infection, the flu (Christmas week!), and then realizing the sinus infection wasn't gone. Now it’s GI issues and fatigue, difficulty figuring out why some of her infusion med is seeping out every week, and helping her meet her personal goals for this year.
Isaiah 43:19 was the verse of the day on New Year’s Day on my favorite Bible app. It ministered to something deep inside me, encouraging and reminding me. God is doing something new! He’s working on my behalf even now, although I can’t see it.
As I pray about my goals for this year, I see that God is definitely doing something new. Words like margin, rest, and no (as in, saying no!) keep coming to mind, and they’re being confirmed everywhere I turn---in sermons, an article in the paper, book reviews. This is the year of taking care of myself, building margin in every area of my life so that I don’t stay overwhelmed and exhausted, tapped out physically, mentally, emotionally, financially, and spiritually.
I’m saying no more often, which is hard for me. (I’m a recovering people pleaser.) I’m writing every day, but I’m only posting on my own site twice a week. I’m learning to knit, and I’m finding relaxation and joy in creating something beautiful. I’m spending more time with my children, laughing, playing board games, knitting, and enjoying unhurried discussions about their lives. I’ve closed shop on a business I've spent two years building. I’m changing my diet. I’m restarting my exercise program. I’m reading books about some health concerns so I can take measures to improve or prevent problems. I’m reading for fun too.
In taking better care of myself and enjoying my life, I am better able to take care of my children, to pour into my husband, to write something meaningful out of the overflow of the joy I feel.
It’s a new thing. It’s hard, but I like it.
Father, thank you for the new thing you’re doing in my life this year. Please help me to stay focused on what you have given me to do. I desperately need margin and rest in my life, but I can’t create this change without your help. Thank you for seeing me through each day and helping me to stick to the goals you've shown me so that I can joyfully serve the husband and children you've blessed me with.
How do you create margin and rest in your life so you can better care for your family?