Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Beyond Comprehension

"Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts."  (Isaiah 55:19, GWT)

There are certain things in this great big world that will just never make sense to us.  As parents of  kids, with special needs we already wrestle to understand why a loving God would allow our children to suffer the way they do.  But the trials of parenting a child with difficult diagnoses does not necessarily exempt us from further difficulties.

I recently returned from a vacation to receive news that a loved one is facing some new challenges with their cancer treatment.  It took me to a place I have been more times than I care to admit at my young age.  I have grieved at the funerals of at least two special needs moms and one of our faithful volunteers in the first decade of this ministry.  Another of our mothers recently saw her young daughter relocate to her home in heaven, way too soon by our standards.  Such unspeakable anguish can't help but leave a person reeling and wondering why!  Haven't these people been through enough?  How could God allow such things?

The only way we can find peace in such awful turmoil is by trusting in our loving God.  He assures us that His ways are beyond our comprehension.  This gives me confidence that there is some positive purpose for all our bitterest grief.  Jesus alone fills me with the hope that, "our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." (2 Corinthians 4:17, NIV)

I must encourage you that in each of the situations I have mentioned above, God was glorified!  While two of the deaths were very sudden, others bore the hallmarks of humor, endurance, growing in faith and increasing value in what was truly important.  Even the families mentioned who experienced the shock of sudden loss praised God and had their vision set towards heaven through their tears.  They were all living testimonies that our response to tragedy can be a light in this very dark world.

As I share the grief in my heart with you today, I would like to spur you on to a hope that goes far beyond the circumstances of today.  There is so much we don't see or know that God is working out in the heavenly realms.  And when we get to heaven, the beauty of His unveiled purposes for every heart ache will overwhelm us with joy.  I leave you today with a poem that I post every now and then that has been a great encouragement to me over the years:

~The Weaver~

My life is but a weaving between the Lord and me;
I may not choose the colors, He worketh steadily;
For He can view the pattern upon the upper side,
While I can see it only on this, the under side.

Oft times He weaveth sorrow, which seemeth strange to me;
But I will trust His judgment, and work on faithfully.
'Tis He who fills the shuttle; He know just what is best,
So I shall weave in earnest and leave with Him the rest.

Not till the loom is silent and the shuttles cease to fly,
Shall God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why -
the dark threads are as needful in the Weaver's skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.

~Author Unknown~


  1. Thanks for letting me in on this! God has certainly shown me that HE is in each moment of joy and grief. It's so encouraging to know that my mom's life is still making a difference even after she's gone. Thanks.

  2. Wow Barb, thanks for sharing ur heart...Im always praying for u...and ur ministry...Lord is so awesome...He knows when we need ppl and when we need to be reminded of things in our life...thanks for blessing me while we were chatting adn after reading this...thanks...Keep ur FAITH! Remember to cast all of ur cares on Him...even when u dont know what to do...leave ur burdens on His feet! He will carry u thru anything...He will be there to guide u in ur every day...LOVE U SIS! Jen

  3. Sometimes I struggle with understanding or I guess I should say the lack of understanding. I'd trade places with Colby in a heart beat but I know that's not the plan. Even though I have no clue what is the plan I know that his hand is guiding us through this and that Colby's strength and perseverance have influenced many people. Maybe that's the plan? Someday I will know.