Friday, May 14, 2010

Angry at God

"Come near to God and he will come near to you..." (James 4:8, NIV)

Over the years, who of us hasn't run into someone who is really angry with God? That "someone" might even be ourselves. The scenario usually includes something awful happening in the person's life, something tragic that leaves us wondering "why". When life doesn't make sense, we turn to God, and sometimes it still doesn't make sense. There is a wrestling with the question, "How could a supposedly loving God allow this?" When the answer doesn't come to the seeker's satisfaction, there is a resolute withdrawal from God. The person disengages from prayer, Scripture reading and any faith community. That individual is left out on their own to fester in their anger.

Does this perhaps describe you or someone close to you? If so, have you discovered how to get beyond this point? The answer lays in the exact opposite of what our human nature prompts us to do.

In Genesis 32:22-30, Jacob wrestles with God himself until God will bless him. Though it costs him his physical health, he won't relent until he gains what he seeks. In the end, Jacob not only gets the blessing, he also receives a new name which is passed on to an entire nation, Israel (meaning "struggler with God").

What should this translate into in our lives? Don't stop wrestling with God because He doesn't make sense! There is tremendous blessing in hanging in there until you receive the answers you seek. Surely, the God who spoke the universe into existence is big enough to handle your problems. The God who put up with sinful man torturing His own Son is loving and kind enough to put up with your anger. He promises that you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart! (Jeremiah 29:13)

I myself have continued to struggle with countless trials, BIG ones, over the years. But as I draw close to God, I get to know His character, and He comforts me. Just as I have to subject my children to some difficult, painful things for their ultimate benefit, so I am reassured that God has to do the same with me. As we are wiser than our young children, so He is much wiser than me. I have come to a point where I don't need to have all the answers to my heartaches because I have grown in a trusting relationship with God through relentless prayer and daily reading of His love letter to me, the Bible.

I leave you with a poem that I have shared in the past, encouraging you to never give up. Continue to fight out those feelings with the One who loves you so passionately!

~The Weaver~

My life is but a weaving between the Lord and me;
I may not choose the colors, He worketh steadily;
For He can view the pattern upon the upper side,
While I can see it only on this, the under side.

Oft times He weaveth sorrow, which seemeth strange to me;
But I will trust His judgment, and work on faithfully.
'Tis He who fills the shuttle; He know just what is best,
So I shall weave in earnest and leave with Him the rest.

Not till the loom is silent and the shuttles cease to fly,
Shall God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why -
the dark threads are as needful in the Weaver's skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.

~Author Unknown~


  1. Very nice post, Barb. "Never give up" is a message we all need some days. :)

  2. Very timely and touching. Thank you so much for sharing.

    Lisa, a mom with special needs of 4 blessings, one with numerous special needs @