Tuesday, September 15, 2009

He's Got Your Back!

"If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself." (2Timothy2:13, NIV)
The walk of faith is not always a straight line ascending from left to right. Challenges come our way, testing the faith we profess, providing us with opportunities to reexamine and re-prioritize.

I have recently come through one of these challenges. As often happens, it came at a pinnacle, where I had the great privilege of eye witnessing God's mighty move in the ministry. Suddenly, as if from nowhere, a medical crisis arose with my son. We thought nothing of it at first, as his hemophilia is, in essence, a continual lesson in dealing with emergencies. Nevertheless, this was not our garden-variety episode. Days turned into weeks as new symptoms and concerns arose along with their various remedies. Daily drives of 60 miles round trip were required as day surgery and outpatient therapies were required.
So often it happens that our irritability and frustration grows as our energy level depletes. Lack of stamina morphs into negative emotions. Even those of us who are "supposed to have this down pat" can fall subject.
I found myself angry. When will these constant trials stop? Why does God continue to allow this? Enough! Enough of the financial stresses that come from perpetually being in the medical system! Enough of driving broken-down vehicles! Enough of not being able to afford even the simplest camping weekend away! Enough of watching my child cry and suffer, wishing for the relief of Heaven!
In my negativity, I found myself questioning, What difference does the Christian life really make? As suddenly as the onset of the crisis, came the onset of the thought, I don't have to be perfect to be loved and accepted by God. "My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge." (Psalm 62:7) That's the difference! Jesus gave His life to cover me at times like this. He's got my back -- and He's got yours too.
Knowing that He remains faithful even when I'm not, gave me enough endurance to cling to the Lord and to allow Him to carry us through the remainder of this trial. Successfully making it through life's storms doesn't depend a bit on me. It depends on God.
Holding God's Word closely to my heart refreshed me and renewed my attitude. I could get off myself and back to thankful eyes that see the good gifts the Lord sustains me with daily. Thank God He's there to give me grace in the downturns and guidance to get me back on track!

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